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Day 6.

2011-03-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

Today was a day of...the unexpected.

I realized today that not only are all humans alike completely capable of making mistakes, we are also adept at stupidity.

N proved that to me with her amazing rants and tales of her adventures facing two of the best examples of such a statement. She baffles me, really, but never ceases to amaze me with how formidable and vulnerable she can be at times. That's what I call a force of nature; almost on par with my mother sometimes.

Wait. I retract that. NO ONE is like my mother. Most intimidating woman I know. Michelle Obama and Sarah Palin ain't got nuts on ma momma.

I love her to tears anyway. Even though she has this knack of driving me completely nuts at times. And vice versa.

I love you, mommy. :)

xoxo
S.

Day 4: The Taxi Driver who knew nothing and everything.

2011-03-22T20:47:00.003+08:00

He gave me a lot to think about.

He gave me insight, albeit a short one, into a day in his life, being the second brother, only a year younger than his eldest brother.

His brother is an engineer. He is a taxi driver. His wife doesn't want him. He spends all day looking for customers, giving him no time whatsoever with his kids. His house is mortgaged, he is up to his ears in debt. Through his speech and a small admission of his own, he told me that he feels inferior to his brother, who back in high school, studied like a mad genius on crack and became the Masters-graduate, 3-house-owner, mechanical engineer at TNB that he is today.

And him. The taxi driver. Sympathizing with his current life. All because he didn't try hard enough; no, he didn't bother to try hard enough.

He gave me something to think about. He gave me insight into a world that I had not known first hand about but was willing to share his experiences to me anyway.

I am baffled by his account. But amazed that he could do it with a straight face.

And he told me the one thing I remember with such clarity: Don't let other people tell you what to do. Do what you want to do, and do it well.

I liked him and hated him all at the same time.

I have a lot of thinking to do.

xoxo
SARA

Day 3.

2011-03-21T15:12:00.002+08:00

Today, I learnt that the easiest things to accomplish in a day are sometimes the hardest to bring yourself to doing.

Here's how it's going to work. I'm going to keep working myself out till I can't move a single muscle in my body. I'm going to keep doing it until I feel satisfied with myself.

I think what I need right now is to first accomplish something without feeling so shitty about not doing it. I need to ignore the faults and mistakes that I have made and instead focus on my main goal: TO BE SO PERFECT, I COULD MAKE YOU CRY.

So I'm going to correct what I've done, suck it up like a man, and do myself a favor.

By first doing 3 sets of 10 sit-ups, and then 3 sets of the cycling motion on my back.

I'm going to learn to take excellent care of myself.

I am going to learn to be the perfect lady.

And you know what I say to any idiot that says "nobody's perfect" to me?

I already know that, but I can still try to be as perfect as I can be.

Because obviously the current me realy isn't doing any good.

xoxo
SARA

TOTAL RECALL.

2011-03-19T19:28:00.003+08:00

This blog is about to receive a total makeover, just as I am.

The challenge?

To become the smartest, most capable and responsible woman I can imagine. Fearsome, intimidating, and confident. With a killer smile and a smokin' body to top it all off, and gorgeous long healthy hair for the cherry.

The regime?

We're starting small. This is going to be a real challenge. I am going to challenge myself with everything I've got, for all my brains are worth.

There is no failing. There's only succeeding. Like whoever it is that invented this saying said, "Where there's a will, there's a God damned way". And I'll be damned if I don't have the will to do it.

The goals?

1. I want to be an Ambassador for the Embassy of a country. I want to work with people, not numbers. I am going to study hard. Study my ass off. Give it all I've got. Whatever tears, blood, and sweat I've got to shed, I'll shed it. The way I see it, I'm wasting time wallowing in my sorrows. So I'm going to start over, and start fresh. Even if I'm on my own, I know that I can do it. I'll do whatever it takes, EXCEPT whoring myself out. I have my morals to uphold too.

2. I am going to pull a 360. I need to be a lady by the time I graduate. I am GOING to be a lady by the time I graduate. No biting nails, no rolling in the dirt with the guys, no climbing trees, and NO SWEARING. The swearing stops NOW. I am going to learn to walk the walk, and talk the talk. The manners, the execution, the gentle gestures, the soft steps, and the allure. And by the time I'm done with myself, I'll be a whole new person inside and out with a bright white perfect smile to boot. By then, I'll be able to look at everyone with the confidence and pride to say, "I am Sara Jade Marie Stephens and it is a pleasure to meet you."

3. This body is going to be tight, firm, and toned by the time I'm through with it. No excuses. Goodbye flabby thighs and arms. Good bye tummy. Good bye jelly butt. To hell with you all. The goal weight is 50KG. And neither hell nor heaven will get in between me and that goal.

The regime?

1. 8 slow squats, 8 fast squats. 3 sets. 3 times a week. Every week for four years.

2. Jogging around the campus (1 hour). Once a week. Every week. For four years.

3. Static jogging. In my room. 50 times. 3 sets. Once in the morning. Once at night. 3 times a week. Every week. Four years.

4. Warm ups, stretching. Sit-ups. 10 times. 5 sets. 3 times a week. Every week. Four years.

5. Grilled chicken breasts, boiled eggs. Fruits (apples, grapes, oranges, etc.). Vegetables. Non- fried meat. 8-12 bottles of water everyday. As little carbs, fried foods, and trans fat as possible.

6. ABSOLUTELY NO FAST FOOD, SWEETS, CHIPS, PRESERVATIVES, OR ARTIFICIAL SWEETENERS WHATSOEVER.

For the next four years, eating, exercising, reading, and studying is all I'll be doing. It's all I'll be concentrating on. No man or woman in the world can tell me anything else, not my mother, my father, my sisters, or my friends. Even if I have to ditch everyone for the next four years, I am completely willing. THE NEXT FOUR YEARS ARE GOING TO BE ABOUT ME AND ME ALONE. So screw you, you and YOU.

The timeline?

FOUR YEARS.

By this time come 2015, I will be all that I can be while still being me.

Wish me luck!

xoxo

SARA JADE